:: Dreams ::

I just woke up... I slept at 4am... isn't that sweet?

Anyway... I'm writing this down before I forget..

I seem to be able to clearly remember my dreams if I sleep at that time.. well, here goes..

Dream One:

I was a student at Hogwarts, but I can't seem to recall which house I was in... There was this three witches from the "dark side" that came and took everybody under their control... yep, that means Dumbledore was under their spell, too... that means that they're uber powerful... but for some reason, I wasn't... and of course, I had to do something to save them all... I was the only one who knew and who could try. So I climbed up the stairs of a tower to their main office, (it said main office on the door)... but during my climb, I encountered dobby, a dementor, and of all supernatural ghosties, casper... I put all their lights out, I even managed to cast a Patronus for the dementor... the Patronus wasn't an animal... hell, it was a motorcycle...

Anyway, when I got inside the main office, I saw the three witches... they had a sleeping dragon in front of them... I was lucky that the dragon was plain stupid and lazy... It just went on slumbering even if the witches kicked and cast spells on it... so, they had to do it on their own. We went on casting spells and doing wicked matrix movements... and when I noticed that my spells weren't working, I wondered why... then I found the answer... I didn't have my wand with me... hehehe... how I was able to cast spells, I have no idea. Time stopped as I grabbed my wand and thought of what-was-that-spell to conjour an animal... (I knew I remembered it, I just can't right now)... and just as I was about to cast that spell, my phone rang... inside hogwarts?... no, beside me, on my bed when I woke up... damn, and it was the climax as well.... I read the message and went back to sleep, hoping that the dream would continue...

It didn't, but there was a whole new dream...

Dream Two:

I am able to say that my dreams are in technicolor... The setting, my house, this street, this village, this city, this country, this world... the twists? my house didn't look like my house now... it was kind of creepy... but the rest was all there... the people, the stores... it was only my house that looked different. Kind of like an early 18th century country house. My parents were not there, nor did I have any siblings.. I was the lone child... and it was my aunts who took care of me... (think James and the Giant Peach kind of auntys)... that's the setting. The conflict... I'm an 18 year old kid who couldn't get out of the house... but every night, I plan and I plan for some freaking way to... And one night, when my auntys came home drunk in their stupid excuse for a utility van/car... ( i don't know how to describe the car... it was kind of like a cross between a Kia Pride, a CR-V, and a Mitsubishi L-300... and it had the color of rust) ...what luck! they're stone drunk... So when they went off to sleep, I got on one of the big bikes they have in the lower garage and zoomed my way out... as I passed by the corner of the subdivision's first street, a green motorcycle with red stripes zoomed past me, it was followed by a grey one... The green one caught my attention... I was confused as I could not see where the driver was... turns out that the motorcycle was top down!! (alright!)... I could see the bumps where the arms and the legs were to fit in... but it was sealed tight...

Anyway, I stopped by the Video One store to check my bike when Kit and Jan popped up... when I looked up, the stores at the front of Video One disappeared... all there was was a plain surrounded by trees and a road leading to somewhere. Kit asked where we would be going... I said, downtown... so the three of us hopped on my bike and we started to go to the city proper... It turns out that the road leads to Juna Subd... and when we got out of the main entrance, I took a left... Jan pointed out that it was the wrong way, I had to take the right.. so I squeezed the brake that didn't seem to quite do its job and made a u-turn somewhere in front of the building that sells furniture... when we pressed forward, I noticed that people were running towards the direction opposite from where we were going... then I looked up and saw this wicked tornado... oh, yeah... I couldn't reach the foot break so I screamed at Kit to do it for me... the tires of the bike squealed as I tried to put as much distance as possible between us and the tornado.

When I couldn't see the tornado anymore, I turned to this small country shack and we all hid under planks of wood, hoping that the tornado wouldn't suck us in... we waited, we waited... then, the two couldn't take it anymore, they went out and left me... I was scared... I might die... I still haven't hugged my girlfriend yet. Then the planks of wood were shoved off... it was Kit and Jan, they said it was all over. I heaved a big sigh of relief and walked out and around the house. The tornado was subsiding over a corn field... I couldn't describe how it looked, but it was cinema-like... outstanding special effects...

So we went back on my bike and we proceeded downtown... the place was a total wreck... We stopped by what was once ateneo de davao grade school... the whole face of the building was gone... (come to think of it, it didn't look like a tornado went by but a bomb went off inside the campus)... we left the deserted place and took a scenic view of the city... only a small portion was hit... probably fron the buhangin flyover to nccc matina... the rest was intact... but the only mall that was open was SM... so we went there. I don't know how this happened but Caltex's Starmart was on the side of SM... Jade was there... but I didn't hug her... there was this huge sign behind the counter that said, "NO VISITORS ALLOWED"... ??!? ...so I just said goodbye and be safe and we went inside SM... we parked our bike by one of those round seats, and then we headed off to pizza hut to eat... The place was crowded, like one of those refugee camps... but the food was great, and to top it off, FREE!.. then this guy came by our table and introduced himself as my brother... the face looked familiar because he was my dad... but he introduced himself as my brother.

So, we had a chitchat and decided to go home... we all walked towards my bike, I was behind the three, who surprisingly got on well with each other... when we neared the bike, my eyes grew with surprise, one of my aunts was leaning in front of it, seemingly familiarized by the bike... I tip-toed away from them but my "brother" shouted at me, "Hoy Kai, di'ba sa iyo to?" ... my aunty caught me... and I was about to surrender when something popped into me.. "Fight Kai, fight!"... so I shoved her away and started screaming things like, "This is not 18th century, you mummified asshole," or, "I've got a life of my own, bitch!"... yadda-yadda... she was dumbfounded... when I noticed that I said, "You're not dumbfounded aunty, JUST DUMB!!!"... then I woke up. The gate was opening and closing and tatay was saying something to the kids... I was still sleepy, and was wondering what the next dream would be... so I just plopped back to bed.

Dream Three:

Scene... aicha's house... we were debating on what to do... then I said, "Hey, i-copy natin yung mga mp3s namin sa hard drive nyo..." she thought about it first... she said, "The last time I touched the computer, it cost me 200 pesos..." ... whatever that meant... but still, we inched towards the computer and just as we were about to touch it... the door opened and her "brother" came in... we snapped back and slowly left the room... as we did, his brother put the monitor down... I was surprised because the monitor was showing something but the CPU wasn't turned on.. and what was it showing? AXN... huh?.. aicha's brother explained that it was a computer-television hybrid... aaaah, makes sense... So I joined aicha by the sala, she was handling these two decks of cards... one deck, the one that was on the table, had images of kama-sutra... the other were dinosaurs, magic stuff, etc... the one she was shuffling... and then suddenly we were in some kind of RPG (think final fantasy X... the grafix, the music.. everything... it didn't look really real... just amazingly realistic)... heheh... I was Kakeru, the hero, Jade was my leading-lady, Aicha was there too, she was the keeper of the necklace... the other characters I had no idea...

There was a stream, and we were all sleeping... (this part I had to go through five times before I got it right... heheh... think of a savegame that you do over and over again until you get it...)... there was this pterodactyl/human hybrid that was trying to kill us... so I died five times... and on the sixth try, I noticed that if somebody moved even a bit, it would kill us all. So I chose the wait for it... wait for it... it landed on the ground close to me.. wait for it.. then when it bent over to sniff, i shouted "NOW!" and took hold of the brute's arm. The rest of the party came and helped out... we punched him, broke his bones, (one of the characters was some kind of mage, he kept throwing rose petals that surprisingly seemed to harm the brute) ... threw him into the stream where he vanished into thin air. Then the ground shook... a bright light shone from somewhere down the stream... we all scampered to a ditch... then a voice boomed... "Kakeru Mitchiko, bind the necklace with a rose bloom and come here...".. Aicha was already walking her way to the source of the light... i got there and stopped her and shouted... "Didn't you hear? I'm supposed to do it!"... She reluctantly handed the necklace over to me. I ran for the mage and asked for a rose bloom, whatever that was... injured, he told me to pull out a piece of the colored tatters that were sewn onto his robe... whatever... and then I went to Jade, who was crying, saying "What would I do? Without you I'm nothing... maybe when you're gone I'll just keep on drawing your face over and over..." I replied, "I will be back... don't worry." And then I hugged her ever so tightly...

"Kakeru, I'm waiting..." the voice boomed again...

Reluctantly, I let go and tied the colored tatter on the pendant and jumped right through... (now in this RPG, you can open the menu even if there is an active event going on... so I scrolled down and saw that what I got was a rose petal... not a rose bloom. Where was this going to lead?... it was that RPG that branched off depending on what you did... no game is ever the same.) The bright light engulfed me and then I lost conciousness...

When I was coming to, I was in a cell... three people were outside, one of them was saying, "She's coming to."... the first-person view turned into third-person.. It was Jade who was inside the cell... and she had a haircut...

The guy who spoke first said, "how do you feel? do you know who you are?"

Then Jade replied, "I'm a class AA robot who is programmed to do your biddings."

Another guy spoke, "Excellent, Jaques... you're brilliant!"

The guy named Jaques laughed, "Ha ha ha... of course! With this technology, we can mass produce cyborgs and sell them cheap!"

The first guy opened the cell door and said, "For your first assignment, go to Half-City and collect the money from ____?____."

"Yes, sir!" Jade walked away... and the screen blacked out.

When it came back, Jade was on this platform with an NPC on it, along with a portal... the directions of the NPS was that she were to enter this portal, get the Half-gem and come back...

After that, the dream ended altogether... and I noticed that the watch was saying 1:05.... hehehe....

Reality Bayts

Over the years, I have learned na pag “attach-na-attach” ka sa isa ka tao, sa gusto man nimo maseryoso o dili, kay naay kauban na sakit sa kasing-kasing. Kung dili man sa uban, at least kabalo ko what I felt, am feeling, ug posibleng ma-feel sa future. Sad to say, dili man ginapursige ang tao na main-love ug taman habang naa pa ta sa edad na ni (20 pababa). Every situation na maagihan nato ay either asset or liability sa atong pag-mature. Kaning mga maagihan nato ay kanang mga “makers or the breakers of our very existence” habang ga-hinga pa ta. To put it straight to the point, sa milyones nga tao diri sa kalibutan, sharo man na pare-parehas ang views… mao ni ang akong naobserbahan:

Naay kanang “need to find the one” kay mao nang “the one” ang magiging first, only, and last individual na mag-take sa dako nga lugar sa heart.

Naay eksaktong baliktad anang nauna na ang goal ay maka-acquire sila ug experience para maganahan na katong si “the one”. Ang basehan ani kay either ma in-love siya sa kadaghang tao, or dili kaayo committed na as-in magkauyaban na gyud where ang isa kay mag-dominate, unya ang pares kay himuon maski unsa in the name of love. (Sabot?)

Naay hadlok gyuuuuud kaayo sa idea na makipag-bulag… unsamay nangitabo? Wala na gyud sya’y care masking gwapa o gwapo to the max ang nagapa-igat sa iyaha. (Mangitabo ni kasagaran sa wala pa gyuuuud nagka-uyab.) Ang gina-isip sa tao kay “What if…” (What if ani sya? What if mag ing-ani sya? What if… you know what I mean.)

Naa tong mga gusto lang walay challenge magka-uyab. Manguyab lang na sila pag naa na sa duol ang target ug dali lang ma-wrap sa little finger.

Naa pud nang mga feel nila nakaabot na sila sa point na ang word na “love” kay pamaagi lang para makapaduol ug tao sa imoha para lang bulagan ka taod-taod pag sawa na siya. Mao ni sila ang feeling like ginamit sila, nahugawan, ug gilabay sa basurahan.

Naay mga martyr na, amidst all circumstances fate, destiny, and inevitability would throw at them, wala gihapon sila ma-tagam. Ingnan nimo na sila ug “NO” kay murag gina-imbetahan sila mag-padayon ug taman. Mu-undang ra na sila pag gipakyu-han (insert dirty finger here). Pero, amazingly, mupadayon na sila next week.

Naay wala nakasabot sa iyahang relationship… mami-miss ba nila ang tao o dili? Kungsabagay, naa ra na sya diha.

Naay dili committed pero they act as if. Confused pag gi-substitute para sa uban. Wala sila kasabot kung magselos ba sila o dili.

Naa ning (kabalo ko familiar mo ani) hilig sa phrase na ni: “Unsaon man nako diay kung naay uyab? Asawa man gani maagaw, uyab pa kaha?”

Naay manguyab, o magkauyab, seryoso man o dili. Mulaag sa park karon kauban “sya”, ugma lain na sad ang “sya”. Walay kaso diri ang bulagan… anad na sila. Kung pangutan-on nganong wala ray kaso? Tubangon lang nila, “Kay ngano man? Mingyo-on ba diay mi?

Naay mga natural na manhid sa mga “vibes” sa ilahang paligid. Wala nila ma-feel kung naa bay nagaparamdam sa ilaha masking magrampa pa ni siya sa ilahang atubangang na naka-hubo. Bunala ra gud, diba ma-sense na nila… temporarily.

Naay murag tanga na maging emotionally depressed pag wala na nila nakita for a day. Mura na siya gikulata ug taman o gi-torture kay dili na mu-kaon, wala nay gana tibuok adlaw… mura lagi’g patay.

Naay naga-“go for the gold”… literally.

Naay mga loyal, unshakeable, ever-pleasing, unmovable and irrefutable na mga tao (shaks! English to ah…) na wala nay lain hinimo sa kinabuhi kundi ang palipayon ang ilahang partner… in short, itoy, boy, maid… TIG.

Naa ning mga masking kahibalo na sila gina-two time sila for the nth time pero mao lang gihapon ang unod sa kasing-kasing.

Naay mangita ug uyab para lang sa ilang kalingawan… tsk tsk tsk…

Naay hilig kaayo sa “multitasking”… (kasabot naman siguro ka.)

Kanang kamo na familiar sa linya na ni… “Baby, I can’t live without you talaga!”… pusang iring, pangita ug lain nga ingnan ana… gumana na yan sa FAMAS.

Naay gamay na naay lain-lain nga kauban para sa lain-lain nga tuyo (dili bulad na tuyo)… one for the intelligent conversation, one for hugging sa movies, one for those “hot” times, one for those “lonely” times, one night’s stand, one for the money, two for the show…

Naay mga natakwil na unya nagtanom ug generalized dumot sa mga parehas atong nagtakwil. Ang ilahang number one lifetime goal kay palisudon gyud ug taman kato silang mga parehas sa nagtakwil… or hangtud naay mag-knock ug sense sa ilaha.

Naay torn between…

Naay himuon tanan… I mean TANAN, para lang maiyaha ang iyahang gusto.

Naa pay daghan… dungaga ra gud…

INSomNIa

Through my veins
Run the blood of
The Night

I bask in the
Cold wind
That relentlessly
Tries to make me
Shiver

Am I cold?

Lying on the
Icy pavement,
I gaze up at the
Cloud-covered skies,
Coo at bats that
Wander blindly,
Bark at caterwauling cats and
Hiss at sniffing dogs.

Without a doubt,
I have been bitten
By a vampire.

But what kind of
Creature of the night
Am I that can
Walk tall in the day?

I crack my knuckles
In annoyance
As I shuffle through
Empty parking lots

Dark-rimmed eyes
Stare back at me
Mirrored windows

I meet it’s gaze,
Fire and brimstone burns into my
Soul and reminds me
That I’m still alive…

Without question,
I bleed as I run the
Razor through my soft
Flesh… watching the crimson
Fluid drip

It’s no use hurting myself
For I don’t feel any pain

I am haunted by
A thousand merciless
Cronies of Morpheus,
Each one having the same
Face, the same voice…

They touch me with
Surprisingly warm hands
And although I run away,
They are always there…
Calling my name,
Touching my face.

And when I sleep,
I’m awake…
It’s pointless to
Close my eyes at night
For I only find myself
Wide awake… strolling
From dream to dream to dream,
Meeting the same one people,
Talking in words that only
The sleepers can understand.

And when I wake,
I’m asleep…
For even when I open my eyes,
They are still there…
The one people…
The one thousand people that
Look the same.

I reach out to touch them
But it seems
That they don’t want
To be touched
Only I could feel their touch,
But I can’t touch them…